Access Me: Allie Marie

To sum up, I am a little bit of everything.

I am complicated, insecure, out of control, but very simple as well.

My family and friends always come first because I would do anything for the people I love.

I am very generous and will always listen to someone who is hurting.

I am a little high maintenance at times,
but if you buy me a plastic ring and mean it when you tell me you love;

I am yours.

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“The Art of Communication”

I have always been a firm believer in writing, and never had a problem expressing myself. Some say you can see exactly what I am thinking through my eyes. Simply because I do not believe in not saying what I feel because all it leads to is questions left unanswered and important things left unsaid. To me, that would be like my own personal prison, and who really wants to live that way?

This is how I’ve grown.
This is a part of who I am today, and who I will become tomorrow.
These words are from my perspective, but regardless you will use them however you like [from your perspective].
Stripped and possibly alone with my thoughts, I will write, even if I am [Talking to Myself]…

I stand naked before you.

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Archive for April, 2010

.Stage Freight.

Thursday, 08 April, 2010 20:17 Written by admin 0 Comments

I’m lost in this world

I can’t explain
I’ve never been here before
I don’t understand this kind of pain
these thoughts are hard to comprehend
not sure if these words will make much sense?

Lonely girl enter your world
Lonely girl smile & erase your pain for awhile
Lose the hostile from the summer road
you’ve traveled without him for miles.

Don’t stop & waste your time
clear your mind
he never thinks of you
don’t be blind
he left you behind
with his fake words so kind
there’s no need for memories to rewind
He answered [silently] your questions for you
he no longer feels like you do.

Lonely girl enter your world
Lonely girl smile & erase your pain for awhile
Lose the hostile from the summer road
you’ve traveled without him for miles.

No waiting this time
You’ve learned your lesson before
close the door
you know you deserve more
it’s time for you to ignore
something he should recognize
now close your eyes
& pick the pieces up off the floor
the road got a little rough
to find he’s not there anymore
erase your memories
let go of the painful melodies
time will heal eventually
Lonely girl enter your world
Lonely girl smile & erase your pain for awhile
Lose the hostile from the summer road
you’ve traveled without him for miles.

You feel stripped and betrayed
with each and every new unanswered day

you hide
& you lie

Enter your world
Around you twirl

Smile Pretty Girl…..

.Colorblind.

Thursday, 08 April, 2010 20:14 Written by admin 0 Comments

Sky is black

air white

I breath to fight

and the stars begin to shine thru

when I think of u

I slowly feel u become ready.

I breathe steady.

Your colorless.

all a mess

but I wear u with pride

cuz somehow in my eyes

You shine

past the hypocrite and lies

I see u.

The path becomes dark

another hand along the way

a stranger that I don’t want to stay

In my coffin I lay

not able to breathe another day

Scars and fears

and my blood as my tears

Can U feel me?

I’m here.

I see your true colors

they shine.

the stars align

my north star

as my heart is defined

Notice me.

Hear it beat.

I taste your love so sweet

Color….

but getting smaller…

I’ve waited so long….

but your already gone.

That place in your heart for me has closed.

U left me.

All alone….

Exposed.

.Loveless Rehab.

Thursday, 08 April, 2010 20:13 Written by admin 0 Comments

I keep losing myself from u

different roads

separate me

from the love that I use to be

feelings of disappointment and shame

& you’re the one to blame

U left me all alone

with no where to go

but on with my life

when inside

thru my teeth I lie

while I bleed with my blood from your knife

How long must it take to fight?

When will u ever see the light?

The true being of my soul

Look into my eyes.

How can u not see how much I need u with me?

You’re too selfish

You’re so blind.

Your life is so meaningful to me.

How could u ever question if you’re life should be?

Prisoner.

Will u ever set yourself free?

Please find your soul

I’m in fear that I will never let u go

Becuz this mask I wear

I can never seem to tear

How is it I could need a love

that was apparently never there?

Ignorance

Thursday, 08 April, 2010 20:12 Written by admin 0 Comments

Denial.

My heart is on trial.

fighting like hell to hold on to u

& I’m starting to question why I even love u?

I put my feelings in a box & pushed them far away

I lost them somehow as u were tryin to find ur way

I know they’re still there

N I know I still care cuz when u came back

it was like they were always there

& I’m scared cuz I swear that I’ll stay & be here 4ever

with nothing but hope that we will be together

but I swear u can see thru everything but my heart

cuz every-time u leave

it gets easier 4 me

I can’t even cry anymore

U’ve got me so torn

Subconsciously tho I’m dying

Suffixation.

I’m barely able to breathe

& I refuse 2 let myself see

that u may never get ur soul back

2 finally be with me?

Refusal.

Why can’t I let go of u?

Why can’t I learn from everything u do?

4 sum reason I can never erase ur words

u would think they would just go straight thru me

but instead they flow thru my veins

pumping the blood to my heart

keeping me alive

making me fight like hell to survive

So lust is what I turn to

the desire 4 a man

yearning 4 a touch of a hand

You can’t judge me 4 what I do

I’m only healing what u put me thru

The pieces u broke

I’m just finding a way to cope

these words r just my thoughts out loud-

use them how u would like

cuz w/ U I was goin to spend the rest of my life-

I would never leave ur side

but the miles are getting longer the closer I get to u

so now I will just give u ur time

so u can finally make it right

b/c there’s nothing left 4 me to do

cuz u still do what u do

& I still love u

So i close my eyes

while my soul slowly dies

hear me cry,

as I am trapted loving u for the rest of my life.

It’s getting harder to breathe

cuz now I’ll just have to let u let it all go

While I just wait 4 u 2 finally come home.

Take Advantage

Thursday, 08 April, 2010 20:09 Written by admin 0 Comments

I can’t stand everything u do-

I really don’t understand these feelings I have 4 u.

Torture & Disrespect

I always go back 2 u

just waiting to hear “I love u 2″

even tho in a day

I know that will change

my heart u will exchange

leavin me estranged

Please turn around

look back & see me now

don’t leave me to drown

in my tears

with all my fears

of being alone

bc u always continue to postpone

something I have been holding down on my own

Faith & hope -

i truly believe in u.

Some call it stupidity

cuz I can’t let go of u

I still can feel ur fingertips against mine

they still run thru me after all this time

I’m right here- where did u go?

I need to know

All I have are the words u left me

broken plans

u were suppose to be holding my hand?

cant u see yet what this means?

I’m not goin no where

this i swear

I will sit and continue with a prayer

b/c neither of us are perfect

so lets not dwell and reflect

on a past that leads to rejection

do u see our direction?

forgiveness of sins-

lets bring the blessings back in

I need to feel the warmth of ur skin

…& I don’t know why even with all ur lies

I still see something deep within ur eyes

that I always come back

& with each time it’s like a heart attack….

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